Bodil Joensen was a Danish pornographic actress who also ran a small farm and animal husbandry business. Known for performing acts of bestiality with her dogs, stallion, and boar in footage that was exploited for numerous pornographic films, she died in 1985 as the result of alcoholism and possible suicide.
In the old pictures, I am solemn-faced—my hand
is around the neck of my collie, knobby
knees under my school kilt. Always,
I stand apart from the other children.
Escape was simply anywhere out of Moder’s gaze.
At twelve, it was the Hundige train station. There were always
stray dogs there, and I kept crusts of bread in my pocket.
One day, I sat watching two dogs sniffing
each other under the tail, circling, sniffing
each other’s asses again,
when a man saw me watching.
I said, Wouldn’t it be funny if people greeted each other that way?
The man and I talked until someone told Moder.
Moder called the police.
The man, a known pedophile,
was sent to jail.
Moder thought I’d been raped, so she beat me in the attic
to let the Devil out.
I raged in the attic for days—
it seems the devil did not want to leave me. I screamed,
When I grow up, I’ll fuck boars!
I did not live with Moder much longer after that.
Dogs just lick when they want to lick—
Spot is my friend. Alone
in the house, without heat or light,
we go to bed together. We share
a biscuit, talk until we fall asleep.
She understands what I am.
During his first mating, a boar must be taught
to make love.
At the breeding center, it is my job to teach him.
Young boars run together develop bad habits,
the most common—servicing
It is my job to ensure vaginal entry, also
that he does not mount the front end
of the sow.
The development of his confidence is vital.
The farmers’ wives all hate me.
Their husbands all try to screw me.
I do not let them,
but the money stops coming in:
the farm rent due
and then the truck…
Finally, one day, I go
to Copenhagen to
answer the ad.
When the movie men come from far away: America, Japan,
I welcome them all.
• Some language from the third section is adapted from a 1980 interview: http:// bit.ly/RaxcK. Some language in the fourth section is adapted from an article on pig husbandry: http://bit.ly/HHU1nw.
About the Poet:
Julia Bouwsma's poems and reviews have appeared in publications such as Colorado Review, Cutthroat, The Progressive, Puerto del Sol, Weave Magazine, and Wisconsin Review. A self-employed writer, editor, teacher, and farmer, she lives off-grid in the mountains of western Maine. More information about her work can be found at www.juliabouwsma.com
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