Tortilla Skins
In the hot light of your
kitchen, ‘Uelita, you showed me how to
press the thick dough
against your popping, aluminum table. Your
hands the size of the
tortillas to come, willing the mass to open
as soft disk. My hands too
small to maneuver, to stretch over it,
to pull the dry powder in. I
was fifteen and knew you were happy.
Years after ‘Buelito had
died, you a new kind of woman. Certain eyes.
Laughing, traveling, playing
cards. Able to wake and say no, to skip
the heat of the day to cook
the midday meal. Bake a cake instead, at
night. Crochet and smoke at
the same time. Speak up around men.
Accept a small glass of
beer. The dough as cool as your hands, your
red fingernails disappearing
into the ball. Would you remarry? I
ask. You are quick to
answer. Yes, it is ugly to live alone. Your fingers
have memorized this motion,
this touch. All I can think is how the
wives in Mexico flail in
sick waters, in tired, wakeful oceans, choppy
white crests salting their
faces, silenced and gasping by the slap of
spray. Romantic novella
endings kneaded into the eyes and ears of
daughters, spiteful
neighborhood chisme, the sealing orders from
men, sons, brothers,
husbands. The lines on your face, Uelita, deep
like the folds of the dough
in your hands. The portraits in your
living room, bridal framed
faces, faint as shells at the end of flat
beach, stripped of color by
the brine of dry sunlight, waiting for
the tide to soak them, turn
them, or swallow them. Bone exposed at the
back of the neck, you bend
to your yes. And we press our tortilla
skins to the heat, their
faces down, to cook them.
About the Poet:
Born in Mexico City, Natalia grew up in Texas where her mother taught her Spanish and Bert and Ernie gave her lessons in English. Natalia has won several awards for her poetry and fiction including the 2004 Alfredo Moral de Cisneros Award, the 2008 Dorothy Sargent Rosenberg Poetry Prize and the 2012 Literary Award from the Artist Foundation of San Antonio. Currently, Natalia is an assistant professor of English at Northwest Vista College where she works with students of all levels.
About the Sound of Sugar:
We’ve loved reading the work that we’ve published (clearly), so now we want an opportunity to better hear our contributors. We will feature an audio recording of a poem from one of our seven issues, read by the poet and updated every couple of weeks. This an open invitation to all contributors from any of our issues, we were delighted to print your work, now we’re eager to hear it.
We’ve loved reading the work that we’ve published (clearly), so now we want an opportunity to better hear our contributors. We will feature an audio recording of a poem from one of our seven issues, read by the poet and updated every couple of weeks. This an open invitation to all contributors from any of our issues, we were delighted to print your work, now we’re eager to hear it.